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It's been a very long hiatus, and I know I suck at keeping my LJ updated and commenting on peoples entries- but now that it's summer, I'm actually going to pay a little more attention to LJ.

I decided to check out the shrine today since I haven't really been on much since I left for Japan back in APRIL, and it's totally changed. The Little Teen Dollies thread is deserted with maybe 3 or 4 people. Few of the regulars show up anymore (and I'm sad that Liz is officially gone from the shrine D:), and my hiatus has made me realize how much I miss you guys- which is why I'm going to try to update my LJ more and catch up.

I guess I'm not really willing to go on the shrine that much because it's kind of dead in the threads I like to go to. TT was over with ages ago, so I've kind of lost interest. I'm still going to be on the shrine but I probably won't be on it as much- I would still love to moderate and I feel bad for not being on much without formally declaring a hiatus anywhere- so hopefully I can get more involved with management.

In the mean time, school is finally out! I've been working as a camp counselor, which is pretty stressful, but fun. I have an art challenge I want to complete, using different songs as templates for a composition. I've also been hanging out with my friends.

I also got my report card and am happy to say that I'm on honor roll =) Except that I got a C on my math final...

I hope everyone's summers have been going well! =D
Current Mood:
anxious anxious
Current Music:
Calvado's Chopper- State Radio
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Stolen from emeraldshine who stole it from someone else who stole it from someone else etc. Just spreading the love. :P

Oh, and I have a CRAPload of Japanese songs on my iPod, and because I doubt anyone will ever get them, I'll just write out the ones in English :D However, there may be songs among this list that are SUNG by Japanese people or are in animes that are in and sung in English.

Step 1: Put your music player of choice on random, or shuffle, or whatever.
Step 2: Post the first line or two from the first 20 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing.
Step 3: Strike out the songs when someone guesses both artist and track correctly.
Step 4: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is cheating!

Think you can get any of them?Collapse )
Current Mood:
peaceful peaceful
Current Music:
Bring it (Snakes on a Plane)- Cobra Starship
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Stolen from the lovely triedtoholdonto

1. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me."
2. I respond by asking you a couple personal questions so I can get to know you better. If I already know you well, expect the questions may be a little more intimate!
3. You will update your LJ with the answers to the questions.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

The actual interview from triedtoholdonto

1. Are you a morning person or a night person?
Hmm...an afternoon person? xD If I'm alone, a night person, but if I'm with friends, a morning person. Depends on my caffeine intake xD
2. What's your favorite word to say?
huzzah, harlequin, snuggle, and uh...truffle. Yes. Completely random words. :D
3. If you could be better at one skill, what would it be?
Either not procrastinating or improving my skills as a dancer on pointe.
4. What color is your favorite shirt?
I don't actually have a favorite shirt...for the ones I do like, they're red, black, brown, and blue...
5. If you could only eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
Potatoes. Potatoes and tea. :D


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My uncle is also going through some tough times. We broke all contact with him for almost a decade, because he had been in rehab for drugs and was being pretty much an all around ass. We've been reconnected with him for about 2 years now, but all within the span of 3 months, he had horrible back surgery, got turned down for a job because he just happened to do cocaine 20 years ago, and 2 of his friends died within a few days of Christmas. Of course, one can only hold so much on his back, and eventually, he just let loose and got completely drunk over the weekend. He left the hospital, and his girlfriend was freaking out to us, and basically, it's been a bit tense. I just hope they put him in rehab fast, before he becomes suicidal. He's been going through a lot in the past few years, and I don't want him to suffer any more.

Oy vey. I can't wait for break.

One new dollie...

Current Mood:
gloomy gloomy
Current Music:
Teddy Bear- Ayumi Hamasaki
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Happy birthday, tainee!! 1 day late, I know, but I hope your birthday was good! I'm sorry some not-so good things happened. <:)
Current Mood:
chipper chipper
Current Music:
Bad Boy- Cascada
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So, today has been eventful.

I'm sure the entire country knows by know about the stabbing of James Allenson at Lincoln-Sudbury High in Massachusetts. For anyone who doesn't know me in person, I live in Concord, which is literally one town over, and for this to occur in a suburban area is really rare, and also a bit scary. <.>

Basically, the stabbing happened at 7:45; a sophomore boy and a freshman boy were in the boys bathroom and a fight broke out, and the sophomore had a knife on him, apparently, and stabbed the freshman, who then died half an hour later. We found out during D block, and by E block, the entire school knew. Apparently, the kid who did the stabbing had Asperger's Syndrome, and was on medication, which I'm sure had an affect. Also, by personal experience, working with a kid at camp who HAS Asperger's, they need to know what is going to happen and are huge on planning and just pretty much knowing- perhaps the killing was planned, but I guess we'll never know for sure. The boy could have been getting teased and may have had a knife on him for his own protection.

Anyway, for anyone who actually knew James, I'm sorry for your loss. :(

Other news: My new pointe shoes completely suck, the heel is too short and I need to exchange them or SOMETHING, I FINALLY saw Snakes on a Plane, and it was a bit gory but glorious as well (although the "snake vision" was pretty lame o_0), I got switched out of "Diverse Perspectives on Family" and am now in Creative Writing (HUZZZAH!) for 4th quarter, Thursday night, it SNOWED!, and uh, I just got Chinese food.

Midyears are next week, and I'M NERVOUS!!!!
Current Mood:
restless restless
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So. What's new in my world? I put up a new layout, although it pretty much sucks because I don't know anything about LJ HTML and I use the basic templates because I'm too lazy XD. But there's a new avatar of Ayumi Hamasaki.

Vacation is officially over, and school has officially restarted. x_X

At school lately, I've been feeling a bit over my head and intimidated- as if I'm not really talented enough to be in the higher level band, like I shouldn't be getting worse at Spanish when I had straight A's in it last year, and like how I'm not in any honors classes.

One of my ex-friends is in all honors classes, except for Spanish- one time, we were talking about intelligence, which tends to be a touchy subject, and she was talking about how smart she was, and making me feel completely inferior because *gasp*, I'm not in any honors classes. She pretty much bluntly said that to be smart you had to be in honors classes, which is of course, complete BS. She did say this last year, but I still kind of get that vibe from her.

The only honors class I'm in is band, and I pretty much suck compared to the other percussionists. I never give up, mainly because I don't know how to not try, but I still manage to seem lower. Like I don't really deserve to be there. At the same time, though, I want to get noticed and play something more elaborate and feel like I've accomplished something. Also, I sort of like a guy in the percussion section, and I feel pretty stupid sometimes compared to him. I'm a good drummer, but I don't have as much experience as others.

Sometimes I also feel this sense of inferior-ness when around a few people. It's an incredibly long story, but before this, some of my friends formed this little group that was all cliquey and they kept a notebook, modeling it off that book "The Notebook Girls". I was friends with everyone in the group, and 2 of the people in the group were people I consider my best friends. They got really cliquey, and eventually, all hell broke loose, and everything seems to be okay now, but the club "leader" I suppose you could call her, seems to feel a bit...I don't even know. I feel like she's always watching my every move, just waiting for me to mess up. Just waiting to take advantage of me. It's a bit uncomfortable, and when I try confiding with my closer friends, some of them don't really seem to understand. <_> I don't know if she maybe feels threatened by me, because one of my best friends in their group confided to me about it, but either way, it's not that pleasant.

Honestly, I hate cliques. They just ruin everything. And oftentimes, I'm the one who gets excluded. I was the outcast in kindergarten, even. Thankfully, I have a few best friends and a bunch of other friends that I've gotten close with, but there will always be some clique that messes things up.

Which reminds me. I want to start a community. It's like, there's Fukikomu, there's Sakusei, there's whatever. And then there's me, just floating around in the middle of no where. I'm just afraid that if I do end up starting a community, it'll be a complete bust, just some deserted place where some girl posts stuff that probably 5 people will even bother to look at. I wish I could just start a community with someone, but most of my LJ friends are already IN communities that are pretty much closed and wouldn't want to have the burden of being in two. There's just that sense of "sisterhood" that I really want to be a part of so much.

Overall? Basically I feel intimidated, inferior, stupid, and invisible.

Although this rant sounds a lot more severe then it actually is. It's not like I'm always feeling this, I'm a very optimistic person; but I've been feeling like this a lot more, lately.

In any event, that ends the rant. Here's some of my newer stuff, under the cut.

1 Yu Yu Hakusho (Kuwabara)
1 Fruits Basket (KyoXTohru)
2 Naruto
1 Memoirs of a Geisha
2 Ayumi Hamasaki
5 Misc Anime/Yukirin

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Current Mood:
indescribable indescribable
Current Music:
Dance Dance- Fall Out Boy
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Current Mood:
happy happy
Current Music:
teddy bear- ayu
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Well, I've pretty much had a hiatus on both here and Xanga, and yesterday, I wrote a long entry on Xanga that's more school/friend oriented, so for here I'll probably do the same. :)

So, today is Christmas Eve, and I can't believe it! I mean, I live in Massachusetts, and New England is infamous for it's crazy weather (98 degrees + humidity in the summer, -1 degrees at the bus stop in the winter), but it's like 50 degrees out! Dumb global warming. We got 1 little flurry of snow, when I was in my biology class. x_x SO I MISSED IT. HARRUMPH.

I bought a ton of presents for my friends and family, consisting of lotions, candy, gift cards, calendars, and more. I'm kinda getting broke now xD. I got some nice presents from my friends, though- a book, ducky soap on a rope, a shirt, lotions/body stuff, and some cool tights. Plus candy. ^_^

Is anyone here familiar with Taiko drumming? It's Japanese drumming, when people use these fat sticks (Bachi) and scream, and the drum sort of sounds like a timpani? (And did I just lose half of you there? I'm a percussionist xD) We actually got to perform on taiko drums (I take a class) for the whole school on Friday! It went really well, I thought, although my hands got tons of blisters. The audience loved it, although some of my friends were teasing me later, because I messed up a bit XD. Oh well. It was really fun.

As of now, I'm officially on winter break. ^_^ What a relief.

Oh, and I REAALLLY want to do a voice post, although I have no microphone. Eh, maybe I could borrow one from a friend or something.

Happy belated Chanukah! My mom's Catholic and my dad's Jewish, so we celebrate both X-mas and Chanukah ^_^ And merry Christmas, and happy Kwanzaa!

Enjoy your vacation!
Current Mood:
cheerful cheerful
Current Music:
Real Me- Ayumi Hamasaki
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I've been insanely busy. And lazy.

I'm gonna try to get to everyones entries though.


Not much new here. A lot of new graphics, you can look at them on photobucket. Killery_D

Yeah. I need better things to post about. o_0

Current Mood:
apathetic apathetic
Current Music:
Sweet Sacrifice- Evanescence
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Current Mood:
giddy giddy
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